RUE BARRÉE
"For let Philosopher and Doctor preach
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Of what they will and what they will not,—each
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Is but one link in an eternal chain
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That none can slip nor break nor over-reach."
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"Crimson nor yellow roses nor
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The savour of the mounting sea
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Are worth the perfume I adore
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That clings to thee.
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The languid-headed lilies tire,
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The changeless waters weary me;
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I ache with passionate desire
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Of thine and thee.
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There are but these things in the world—
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Thy mouth of fire,
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Thy breasts, thy hands, thy hair upcurled
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And my desire."
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I
One morning at Julian's, a student said to Selby,
"That is Foxhall Clifford," pointing with his brushes at a young man
who sat before an easel, doing nothing.
Selby, shy and nervous, walked over and began:
"My name is Selby,—I have just arrived in Paris, and bring a letter of
introduction—" His voice was lost in the crash of a falling easel, the
owner of which promptly assaulted his neighbour, and for a time the noise of
battle rolled through the studios of MM. Boulanger and Lefebvre, presently
subsiding into a scuffle on the stairs outside. Selby, apprehensive as to his
own reception in the studio, looked at Clifford, who sat serenely watching the
fight.
"It's a little noisy here," said Clifford,
"but you will like the fellows when you know them." His unaffected
manner delighted Selby. Then with a simplicity that won his heart, he presented
him to half a dozen students of as many nationalities. Some were cordial, all
were polite. Even the majestic creature who held the position of Massier,
unbent enough to say: "My friend, when a man speaks French as well as you
do, and is also a friend of Monsieur Clifford, he will have no trouble in this
studio. You expect, of course, to fill the stove until the next new man
comes?"
"Of course."
"And you don't mind chaff?"
"No," replied Selby, who hated it.
Clifford, much amused, put on his hat, saying,
"You must expect lots of it at first."
Selby placed his own hat on his head and followed him
to the door.
As they passed the model stand there was a furious cry
of "Chapeau! Chapeau!" and a student sprang from his easel menacing
Selby, who reddened but looked at Clifford.
"Take off your hat for them," said the
latter, laughing.
A little embarrassed, he turned and saluted the
studio.
"Et moi?" cried the model.
"You are charming," replied Selby,
astonished at his own audacity, but the studio rose as one man, shouting:
"He has done well! he's all right!" while the model, laughing, kissed
her hand to him and cried: "À demain beau jeune homme!"
All that week Selby worked at the studio unmolested.
The French students christened him "l'Enfant Prodigue," which was
freely translated, "The Prodigious Infant," "The Kid,"
"Kid Selby," and "Kidby." But the disease soon ran its
course from "Kidby" to "Kidney," and then naturally to
"Tidbits," where it was arrested by Clifford's authority and
ultimately relapsed to "Kid."
Wednesday came, and with it M. Boulanger. For three
hours the students writhed under his biting sarcasms,—among the others
Clifford, who was informed that he knew even less about a work of art than he
did about the art of work. Selby was more fortunate. The professor examined his
drawing in silence, looked at him sharply, and passed on with a non-committal
gesture. He presently departed arm in arm with Bouguereau, to the relief of
Clifford, who was then at liberty to jam his hat on his head and depart.
The next day he did not appear, and Selby, who had
counted on seeing him at the studio, a thing which he learned later it was
vanity to count on, wandered back to the Latin Quarter alone.
Paris was still strange and new to him. He was vaguely
troubled by its splendour. No tender memories stirred his American bosom at the
Place du Châtelet, nor even by Notre Dame. The Palais de Justice with its clock
and turrets and stalking sentinels in blue and vermilion, the Place St. Michel
with its jumble of omnibuses and ugly water-spitting griffins, the hill of the
Boulevard St. Michel, the tooting trams, the policemen dawdling two by two, and
the table-lined terraces of the Café Vacehett were nothing to him, as yet, nor
did he even know, when he stepped from the stones of the Place St. Michel to
the asphalt of the Boulevard, that he had crossed the frontier and entered the
student zone,—the famous Latin Quarter.
A cabman hailed him as "bourgeois," and
urged the superiority of driving over walking. A gamin, with an appearance of
great concern, requested the latest telegraphic news from London, and then,
standing on his head, invited Selby to feats of strength. A pretty girl gave
him a glance from a pair of violet eyes. He did not see her, but she, catching
her own reflection in a window, wondered at the colour burning in her cheeks.
Turning to resume her course, she met Foxhall Clifford, and hurried on.
Clifford, open-mouthed, followed her with his eyes; then he looked after Selby,
who had turned into the Boulevard St. Germain toward the rue de Seine. Then he
examined himself in the shop window. The result seemed to be unsatisfactory.
"I'm not a beauty," he mused, "but
neither am I a hobgoblin. What does she mean by blushing at Selby? I never
before saw her look at a fellow in my life,—neither has any one in the Quarter.
Anyway, I can swear she never looks at me, and goodness knows I have done all
that respectful adoration can do."
He sighed, and murmuring a prophecy concerning the
salvation of his immortal soul swung into that graceful lounge which at all
times characterized Clifford. With no apparent exertion, he overtook Selby at
the corner, and together they crossed the sunlit Boulevard and sat down under
the awning of the Café du Cercle. Clifford bowed to everybody on the terrace,
saying, "You shall meet them all later, but now let me present you to two
of the sights of Paris, Mr. Richard Elliott and Mr. Stanley Rowden."
The "sights" looked amiable, and took
vermouth.
"You cut the studio to-day," said Elliott,
suddenly turning on Clifford, who avoided his eyes.
"To commune with nature?" observed Rowden.
"What's her name this time?" asked Elliott,
and Rowden answered promptly, "Name, Yvette; nationality, Breton—"
"Wrong," replied Clifford blandly,
"it's Rue Barrée."
The subject changed instantly, and Selby listened in
surprise to names which were new to him, and eulogies on the latest Prix de
Rome winner. He was delighted to hear opinions boldly expressed and points
honestly debated, although the vehicle was mostly slang, both English and
French. He longed for the time when he too should be plunged into the strife
for fame.
The bells of St. Sulpice struck the hour, and the
Palace of the Luxembourg answered chime on chime. With a glance at the sun,
dipping low in the golden dust behind the Palais Bourbon, they rose, and
turning to the east, crossed the Boulevard St. Germain and sauntered toward the
École de Médecine. At the corner a girl passed them, walking hurriedly.
Clifford smirked, Elliott and Rowden were agitated, but they all bowed, and,
without raising her eyes, she returned their salute. But Selby, who had lagged
behind, fascinated by some gay shop window, looked up to meet two of the bluest
eyes he had ever seen. The eyes were dropped in an instant, and the young
fellow hastened to overtake the others.
"By Jove," he said, "do you fellows
know I have just seen the prettiest girl—" An exclamation broke from the
trio, gloomy, foreboding, like the chorus in a Greek play.
"Rue Barrée!"
"What!" cried Selby, bewildered.
The only answer was a vague gesture from Clifford.
Two hours later, during dinner, Clifford turned to
Selby and said, "You want to ask me something; I can tell by the way you
fidget about."
"Yes, I do," he said, innocently enough;
"it's about that girl. Who is she?"
In Rowden's smile there was pity, in Elliott's
bitterness.
"Her name," said Clifford solemnly, "is
unknown to any one, at least," he added with much conscientiousness,
"as far as I can learn. Every fellow in the Quarter bows to her and she
returns the salute gravely, but no man has ever been known to obtain more than
that. Her profession, judging from her music-roll, is that of a pianist. Her
residence is in a small and humble street which is kept in a perpetual process
of repair by the city authorities, and from the black letters painted on the
barrier which defends the street from traffic, she has taken the name by which
we know her,—Rue Barrée. Mr. Rowden, in his imperfect knowledge of the French
tongue, called our attention to it as Roo Barry—"
"I didn't," said Rowden hotly.
"And Roo Barry, or Rue Barrée, is to-day an
object of adoration to every rapin in the Quarter—"
"We are not rapins," corrected Elliott.
"I am not," returned Clifford, "and I beg to
call to your attention, Selby, that these two gentlemen have at various and
apparently unfortunate moments, offered to lay down life and limb at the feet
of Rue Barrée. The lady possesses a chilling smile which she uses on such
occasions and," here he became gloomily impressive, "I have been
forced to believe that neither the scholarly grace of my friend Elliott nor the
buxom beauty of my friend Rowden have touched that heart of ice."
Elliott and Rowden, boiling with indignation, cried
out, "And you!"
"I," said Clifford blandly, "do fear to
tread where you rush in."
II
Twenty-four hours later Selby had completely forgotten
Rue Barrée. During the week he worked with might and main at the studio, and
Saturday night found him so tired that he went to bed before dinner and had a
nightmare about a river of yellow ochre in which he was drowning. Sunday
morning, apropos of nothing at all, he thought of Rue Barrée, and ten seconds
afterwards he saw her. It was at the flower-market on the marble bridge. She
was examining a pot of pansies. The gardener had evidently thrown heart and
soul into the transaction, but Rue Barrée shook her head.
It is a question whether Selby would have stopped then
and there to inspect a cabbage-rose had not Clifford unwound for him the yarn
of the previous Tuesday. It is possible that his curiosity was piqued, for with
the exception of a hen-turkey, a boy of nineteen is the most openly curious
biped alive. From twenty until death he tries to conceal it. But, to be fair to
Selby, it is also true that the market was attractive. Under a cloudless sky
the flowers were packed and heaped along the marble bridge to the parapet. The
air was soft, the sun spun a shadowy lacework among the palms and glowed in the
hearts of a thousand roses. Spring had come,—was in full tide. The watering
carts and sprinklers spread freshness over the Boulevard, the sparrows had
become vulgarly obtrusive, and the credulous Seine angler anxiously followed
his gaudy quill floating among the soapsuds of the lavoirs. The white-spiked
chestnuts clad in tender green vibrated with the hum of bees. Shoddy
butterflies flaunted their winter rags among the heliotrope. There was a smell
of fresh earth in the air, an echo of the woodland brook in the ripple of the
Seine, and swallows soared and skimmed among the anchored river craft.
Somewhere in a window a caged bird was singing its heart out to the sky.
Selby looked at the cabbage-rose and then at the sky.
Something in the song of the caged bird may have moved him, or perhaps it was
that dangerous sweetness in the air of May.
At first he was hardly conscious that he had stopped,
then he was scarcely conscious why he had stopped, then he thought he would
move on, then he thought he wouldn't, then he looked at Rue Barrée.
The gardener said, "Mademoiselle, this is
undoubtedly a fine pot of pansies."
Rue Barrée shook her head.
The gardener smiled. She evidently did not want the
pansies. She had bought many pots of pansies there, two or three every spring,
and never argued. What did she want then? The pansies were evidently a feeler
toward a more important transaction. The gardener rubbed his hands and gazed
about him.
"These tulips are magnificent," he observed,
"and these hyacinths—" He fell into a trance at the mere sight of the
scented thickets.
"That," murmured Rue, pointing to a splendid
rose-bush with her furled parasol, but in spite of her, her voice trembled a
little. Selby noticed it, more shame to him that he was listening, and the
gardener noticed it, and, burying his nose in the roses, scented a bargain.
Still, to do him justice, he did not add a centime to the honest value of the
plant, for after all, Rue was probably poor, and any one could see she was
charming.
"Fifty francs, Mademoiselle."
The gardener's tone was grave. Rue felt that argument
would be wasted. They both stood silent for a moment. The gardener did not
eulogize his prize,—the rose-tree was gorgeous and any one could see it.
"I will take the pansies," said the girl,
and drew two francs from a worn purse. Then she looked up. A tear-drop stood in
the way refracting the light like a diamond, but as it rolled into a little
corner by her nose a vision of Selby replaced it, and when a brush of the
handkerchief had cleared the startled blue eyes, Selby himself appeared, very
much embarrassed. He instantly looked up into the sky, apparently devoured with
a thirst for astronomical research, and as he continued his investigations for
fully five minutes, the gardener looked up too, and so did a policeman. Then
Selby looked at the tips of his boots, the gardener looked at him and the
policeman slouched on. Rue Barrée had been gone some time.
"What," said the gardener, "may I offer
Monsieur?"
Selby never knew why, but he suddenly began to buy
flowers. The gardener was electrified. Never before had he sold so many
flowers, never at such satisfying prices, and never, never with such absolute
unanimity of opinion with a customer. But he missed the bargaining, the
arguing, the calling of Heaven to witness. The transaction lacked spice.
"These tulips are magnificent!"
"They are!" cried Selby warmly.
"But alas, they are dear."
"I will take them."
"Dieu!" murmured the gardener in a
perspiration, "he's madder than most Englishmen."
"This cactus—"
"Is gorgeous!"
"Alas—"
"Send it with the rest."
The gardener braced himself against the river wall.
"That splendid rose-bush," he began faintly.
"That is a beauty. I believe it is fifty
francs—"
He stopped, very red. The gardener relished his
confusion. Then a sudden cool self-possession took the place of his momentary
confusion and he held the gardener with his eye, and bullied him.
"I'll take that bush. Why did not the young lady
buy it?"
"Mademoiselle is not wealthy."
"How do you know?"
"Dame, I sell her many pansies; pansies
are not expensive."
"Those are the pansies she bought?"
"These, Monsieur, the blue and gold."
"Then you intend to send them to her?"
"At mid-day after the market."
"Take this rose-bush with them, and"—here he
glared at the gardener—"don't you dare say from whom they came." The
gardener's eyes were like saucers, but Selby, calm and victorious, said:
"Send the others to the Hôtel du Sénat, 7 rue de Tournon. I will leave
directions with the concierge."
Then he buttoned his glove with much dignity and
stalked off, but when well around the corner and hidden from the gardener's
view, the conviction that he was an idiot came home to him in a furious blush.
Ten minutes later he sat in his room in the Hôtel du Sénat repeating with an
imbecile smile: "What an ass I am, what an ass!"
An hour later found him in the same chair, in the same
position, his hat and gloves still on, his stick in his hand, but he was
silent, apparently lost in contemplation of his boot toes, and his smile was
less imbecile and even a bit retrospective.
III
About five o'clock that afternoon, the little sad-eyed
woman who fills the position of concierge at the Hôtel du Sénat held up her
hands in amazement to see a wagon-load of flower-bearing shrubs draw up before
the doorway. She called Joseph, the intemperate garçon, who, while calculating
the value of the flowers inpetits verres, gloomily disclaimed any
knowledge as to their destination.
"Voyons," said the little concierge,
"cherchons la femme!"
"You?" he suggested.
The little woman stood a moment pensive and then
sighed. Joseph caressed his nose, a nose which for gaudiness could vie with any
floral display.
Then the gardener came in, hat in hand, and a few
minutes later Selby stood in the middle of his room, his coat off, his
shirt-sleeves rolled up. The chamber originally contained, besides the
furniture, about two square feet of walking room, and now this was occupied by
a cactus. The bed groaned under crates of pansies, lilies and heliotrope, the
lounge was covered with hyacinths and tulips, and the washstand supported a
species of young tree warranted to bear flowers at some time or other.
Clifford came in a little later, fell over a box of
sweet peas, swore a little, apologized, and then, as the full splendour of the
floral fête burst upon him, sat down in astonishment upon a
geranium. The geranium was a wreck, but Selby said, "Don't mind," and
glared at the cactus.
"Are you going to give a ball?" demanded
Clifford.
"N—no,—I'm very fond of flowers," said
Selby, but the statement lacked enthusiasm.
"I should imagine so." Then, after a
silence, "That's a fine cactus."
Selby contemplated the cactus, touched it with the air
of a connoisseur, and pricked his thumb.
Clifford poked a pansy with his stick. Then Joseph
came in with the bill, announcing the sum total in a loud voice, partly to
impress Clifford, partly to intimidate Selby into disgorging a pourboire which he would share, if he chose, with the gardener. Clifford tried to pretend
that he had not heard, while Selby paid bill and tribute without a murmur. Then
he lounged back into the room with an attempt at indifference which failed
entirely when he tore his trousers on the cactus.
Clifford made some commonplace remark, lighted a
cigarette and looked out of the window to give Selby a chance. Selby tried to
take it, but getting as far as—"Yes, spring is here at last," froze
solid. He looked at the back of Clifford's head. It expressed volumes. Those
little perked-up ears seemed tingling with suppressed glee. He made a desperate
effort to master the situation, and jumped up to reach for some Russian
cigarettes as an incentive to conversation, but was foiled by the cactus, to
whom again he fell a prey. The last straw was added.
"Damn the cactus." This observation was
wrung from Selby against his will,—against his own instinct of
self-preservation, but the thorns on the cactus were long and sharp, and at
their repeated prick his pent-up wrath escaped. It was too late now; it was done,
and Clifford had wheeled around.
"See here, Selby, why the deuce did you buy those
flowers?"
"I'm fond of them," said Selby.
"What are you going to do with them? You can't
sleep here."
"I could, if you'd help me take the pansies off
the bed."
"Where can you put them?"
"Couldn't I give them to the concierge?"
As soon as he said it he regretted it. What in
Heaven's name would Clifford think of him! He had heard the amount of the bill.
Would he believe that he had invested in these luxuries as a timid declaration
to his concierge? And would the Latin Quarter comment upon it in their own
brutal fashion? He dreaded ridicule and he knew Clifford's reputation.
Then somebody knocked.
Selby looked at Clifford with a hunted expression
which touched that young man's heart. It was a confession and at the same time
a supplication. Clifford jumped up, threaded his way through the floral
labyrinth, and putting an eye to the crack of the door, said, "Who the
devil is it?"
This graceful style of reception is indigenous to the
Quarter.
"It's Elliott," he said, looking back,
"and Rowden too, and their bulldogs." Then he addressed them through
the crack.
"Sit down on the stairs; Selby and I are coming
out directly."
Discretion is a virtue. The Latin Quarter possesses
few, and discretion seldom figures on the list. They sat down and began to
whistle.
Presently Rowden called out, "I smell flowers.
They feast within!"
"You ought to know Selby better than that,"
growled Clifford behind the door, while the other hurriedly exchanged his torn
trousers for others.
"We know Selby," said Elliott with emphasis.
"Yes," said Rowden, "he gives
receptions with floral decorations and invites Clifford, while we sit on the
stairs."
"Yes, while the youth and beauty of the Quarter
revel," suggested Rowden; then, with sudden misgiving; "Is Odette
there?"
"See here," demanded Elliott, "is
Colette there?"
Then he raised his voice in a plaintive howl,
"Are you there, Colette, while I'm kicking my heels on these tiles?"
"Clifford is capable of anything," said
Rowden; "his nature is soured since Rue Barrée sat on him."
Elliott raised his voice: "I say, you fellows, we
saw some flowers carried into Rue Barrée's house at noon."
"Posies and roses," specified Rowden.
"Probably for her," added Elliott, caressing
his bulldog.
Clifford turned with sudden suspicion upon Selby. The
latter hummed a tune, selected a pair of gloves and, choosing a dozen
cigarettes, placed them in a case. Then walking over to the cactus, he
deliberately detached a blossom, drew it through his buttonhole, and picking up
hat and stick, smiled upon Clifford, at which the latter was mightily troubled.
IV
Monday morning at Julian's, students fought for
places; students with prior claims drove away others who had been anxiously
squatting on coveted tabourets since the door was opened in hopes of
appropriating them at roll-call; students squabbled over palettes, brushes,
portfolios, or rent the air with demands for Ciceri and bread. The former, a
dirty ex-model, who had in palmier days posed as Judas, now dispensed stale
bread at one sou and made enough to keep himself in cigarettes. Monsieur Julian
walked in, smiled a fatherly smile and walked out. His disappearance was
followed by the apparition of the clerk, a foxy creature who flitted through
the battling hordes in search of prey.
Three men who had not paid dues were caught and
summoned. A fourth was scented, followed, outflanked, his retreat towards the
door cut off, and finally captured behind the stove. About that time, the
revolution assuming an acute form, howls rose for "Jules!"
Jules came, umpired two fights with a sad resignation
in his big brown eyes, shook hands with everybody and melted away in the
throng, leaving an atmosphere of peace and good-will. The lions sat down with
the lambs, the massiers marked the best places for themselves and friends, and,
mounting the model stands, opened the roll-calls.
The word was passed, "They begin with C this
week."
They did.
"Clisson!"
Clisson jumped like a flash and marked his name on the
floor in chalk before a front seat.
"Caron!"
Caron galloped away to secure his place. Bang! went an
easel. "Nom de Dieu!" in French,—"Where in h—l are you
goin'!" in English. Crash! a paintbox fell with brushes and all on board.
"Dieu de Dieu de—" spat! A blow, a short rush, a clinch and
scuffle, and the voice of the massier, stern and reproachful:
"Cochon!"
Then the roll-call was resumed.
"Clifford!"
The massier paused and looked up, one finger between
the leaves of the ledger.
"Clifford!"
Clifford was not there. He was about three miles away
in a direct line and every instant increased the distance. Not that he was
walking fast,—on the contrary, he was strolling with that leisurely gait
peculiar to himself. Elliott was beside him and two bulldogs covered the rear.
Elliott was reading the "Gil Blas," from which he seemed to extract
amusement, but deeming boisterous mirth unsuitable to Clifford's state of mind,
subdued his amusement to a series of discreet smiles. The latter, moodily aware
of this, said nothing, but leading the way into the Luxembourg Gardens
installed himself upon a bench by the northern terrace and surveyed the
landscape with disfavour. Elliott, according to the Luxembourg regulations,
tied the two dogs and then, with an interrogative glance toward his friend,
resumed the "Gil Blas" and the discreet smiles.
The day was perfect. The sun hung over Notre Dame,
setting the city in a glitter. The tender foliage of the chestnuts cast a
shadow over the terrace and flecked the paths and walks with tracery so blue
that Clifford might here have found encouragement for his violent
"impressions" had he but looked; but as usual in this period of his
career, his thoughts were anywhere except in his profession. Around about, the
sparrows quarrelled and chattered their courtship songs, the big rosy pigeons
sailed from tree to tree, the flies whirled in the sunbeams and the flowers
exhaled a thousand perfumes which stirred Clifford with languorous wistfulness.
Under this influence he spoke.
"Elliott, you are a true friend—"
"You make me ill," replied the latter,
folding his paper. "It's just as I thought,—you are tagging after some new
petticoat again. And," he continued wrathfully, "if this is what
you've kept me away from Julian's for,—if it's to fill me up with the
perfections of some little idiot—"
"Not idiot," remonstrated Clifford gently.
"See here," cried Elliott, "have you
the nerve to try to tell me that you are in love again?"
"Again?"
"Yes, again and again and again and—by George
have you?"
"This," observed Clifford sadly, "is
serious."
For a moment Elliott would have laid hands on him,
then he laughed from sheer helplessness. "Oh, go on, go on; let's see,
there's Clémence and Marie Tellec and Cosette and Fifine, Colette, Marie
Verdier—"
"All of whom are charming, most charming, but I
never was serious—"
"So help me, Moses," said Elliott, solemnly,
"each and every one of those named have separately and in turn torn your
heart with anguish and have also made me lose my place at Julian's in this same
manner; each and every one, separately and in turn. Do you deny it?"
"What you say may be founded on facts—in a
way—but give me the credit of being faithful to one at a time—"
"Until the next came along."
"But this,—this is really very different.
Elliott, believe me, I am all broken up."
Then there being nothing else to do, Elliott gnashed
his teeth and listened.
"It's—it's Rue Barrée."
"Well," observed Elliott, with scorn,
"if you are moping and moaning over that girl,—the girl who has given you and myself every reason to wish that the
ground would open and engulf us,—well, go on!"
"I'm going on,—I don't care; timidity has
fled—"
"Yes, your native timidity."
"I'm desperate, Elliott. Am I in love? Never,
never did I feel so d—n miserable. I can't sleep; honestly, I'm incapable of
eating properly."
"Same symptoms noticed in the case of
Colette."
"Listen, will you?"
"Hold on a moment, I know the rest by heart. Now
let me ask you something. Is it your belief that Rue Barrée is a pure
girl?"
"Yes," said Clifford, turning red.
"Do you love her,—not as you dangle and tiptoe
after every pretty inanity—I mean, do you honestly love her?"
"Yes," said the other doggedly, "I
would—"
"Hold on a moment; would you marry her?"
Clifford turned scarlet. "Yes," he muttered.
"Pleasant news for your family," growled
Elliott in suppressed fury. "'Dear father, I have just married a charming
grisette whom I'm sure you'll welcome with open arms, in company with her
mother, a most estimable and cleanly washlady.' Good heavens! This seems to
have gone a little further than the rest. Thank your stars, young man, that my
head is level enough for us both. Still, in this case, I have no fear. Rue
Barrée sat on your aspirations in a manner unmistakably final."
"Rue Barrée," began Clifford, drawing himself
up, but he suddenly ceased, for there where the dappled sunlight glowed in
spots of gold, along the sun-flecked path, tripped Rue Barrée. Her gown was
spotless, and her big straw hat, tipped a little from the white forehead, threw
a shadow across her eyes.
Elliott stood up and bowed. Clifford removed his
head-covering with an air so plaintive, so appealing, so utterly humble that
Rue Barrée smiled.
The smile was delicious and when Clifford, incapable
of sustaining himself on his legs from sheer astonishment, toppled slightly,
she smiled again in spite of herself. A few moments later she took a chair on
the terrace and drawing a book from her music-roll, turned the pages, found the
place, and then placing it open downwards in her lap, sighed a little, smiled a
little, and looked out over the city. She had entirely forgotten Foxhall
Clifford.
After a while she took up her book again, but instead
of reading began to adjust a rose in her corsage. The rose was big and red. It
glowed like fire there over her heart, and like fire it warmed her heart, now
fluttering under the silken petals. Rue Barrée sighed again. She was very
happy. The sky was so blue, the air so soft and perfumed, the sunshine so
caressing, and her heart sang within her, sang to the rose in her breast. This
is what it sang: "Out of the throng of passers-by, out of the world of
yesterday, out of the millions passing, one has turned aside to me."
So her heart sang under his rose on her breast. Then
two big mouse-coloured pigeons came whistling by and alighted on the terrace,
where they bowed and strutted and bobbed and turned until Rue Barrée laughed in
delight, and looking up beheld Clifford before her. His hat was in his hand and
his face was wreathed in a series of appealing smiles which would have touched
the heart of a Bengal tiger.
For an instant Rue Barrée frowned, then she looked
curiously at Clifford, then when she saw the resemblance between his bows and
the bobbing pigeons, in spite of herself, her lips parted in the most
bewitching laugh. Was this Rue Barrée? So changed, so changed that she did not
know herself; but oh! that song in her heart which drowned all else, which
trembled on her lips, struggling for utterance, which rippled forth in a laugh
at nothing,—at a strutting pigeon,—and Mr. Clifford.
"And you think, because I return the salute of
the students in the Quarter, that you may be received in particular as a
friend? I do not know you, Monsieur, but vanity is man's other name;—be
content, Monsieur Vanity, I shall be punctilious—oh, most punctilious in
returning your salute."
"But I beg—I implore you to let me render you
that homage which has so long—"
"Oh dear; I don't care for homage."
"Let me only be permitted to speak to you now and
then,—occasionally—very occasionally."
"And if you, why not
another?"
"Not at all,—I will be discretion itself."
"Discretion—why?"
Her eyes were very clear, and Clifford winced for a
moment, but only for a moment. Then the devil of recklessness seizing him, he
sat down and offered himself, soul and body, goods and chattels. And all the
time he knew he was a fool and that infatuation is not love, and that each word
he uttered bound him in honour from which there was no escape. And all the time
Elliott was scowling down on the fountain plaza and savagely checking both
bulldogs from their desire to rush to Clifford's rescue,—for even they felt
there was something wrong, as Elliott stormed within himself and growled
maledictions.
When Clifford finished, he finished in a glow of
excitement, but Rue Barrée's response was long in coming and his ardour cooled
while the situation slowly assumed its just proportions. Then regret began to
creep in, but he put that aside and broke out again in protestations. At the
first word Rue Barrée checked him.
"I thank you," she said, speaking very
gravely. "No man has ever before offered me marriage." She turned and
looked out over the city. After a while she spoke again. "You offer me a
great deal. I am alone, I have nothing, I am nothing." She turned again
and looked at Paris, brilliant, fair, in the sunshine of a perfect day. He
followed her eyes.
"Oh," she murmured, "it is hard,—hard
to work always—always alone with never a friend you can have in honour, and the
love that is offered means the streets, the boulevard—when passion is dead. I
know it,—we know it,—we others
who have nothing,—have no one, and who give ourselves, unquestioning—when we
love,—yes, unquestioning—heart and soul, knowing the end."
She touched the rose at her breast. For a moment she
seemed to forget him, then quietly—"I thank you, I am very grateful."
She opened the book and, plucking a petal from the rose, dropped it between the
leaves. Then looking up she said gently, "I cannot accept."
V
It took Clifford a month to entirely recover, although
at the end of the first week he was pronounced convalescent by Elliott, who was
an authority, and his convalescence was aided by the cordiality with which Rue
Barrée acknowledged his solemn salutes. Forty times a day he blessed Rue Barrée
for her refusal, and thanked his lucky stars, and at the same time, oh,
wondrous heart of ours!—he suffered the tortures of the blighted.
Elliott was annoyed, partly by Clifford's reticence,
partly by the unexplainable thaw in the frigidity of Rue Barrée. At their
frequent encounters, when she, tripping along the rue de Seine, with music-roll
and big straw hat would pass Clifford and his familiars steering an easterly
course to the Café Vachette, and at the respectful uncovering of the band would
colour and smile at Clifford, Elliott's slumbering suspicions awoke. But he
never found out anything, and finally gave it up as beyond his comprehension,
merely qualifying Clifford as an idiot and reserving his opinion of Rue Barrée.
And all this time Selby was jealous. At first he refused to acknowledge it to
himself, and cut the studio for a day in the country, but the woods and fields
of course aggravated his case, and the brooks babbled of Rue Barrée and the
mowers calling to each other across the meadow ended in a quavering "Rue Bar-rée-e!"
That day spent in the country made him angry for a week, and he worked sulkily
at Julian's, all the time tormented by a desire to know where Clifford was and
what he might be doing. This culminated in an erratic stroll on Sunday which
ended at the flower-market on the Pont au Change, began again, was gloomily
extended to the morgue, and again ended at the marble bridge. It would never
do, and Selby felt it, so he went to see Clifford, who was convalescing on mint
juleps in his garden.
They sat down together and discussed morals and human
happiness, and each found the other most entertaining, only Selby failed to
pump Clifford, to the other's unfeigned amusement. But the juleps spread balm
on the sting of jealousy, and trickled hope to the blighted, and when Selby
said he must go, Clifford went too, and when Selby, not to be outdone, insisted
on accompanying Clifford back to his door, Clifford determined to see Selby
back half way, and then finding it hard to part, they decided to dine together
and "flit." To flit, a verb applied to Clifford's nocturnal prowls,
expressed, perhaps, as well as anything, the gaiety proposed. Dinner was
ordered at Mignon's, and while Selby interviewed the chef, Clifford kept a
fatherly eye on the butler. The dinner was a success, or was of the sort
generally termed a success. Toward the dessert Selby heard some one say as at a
great distance, "Kid Selby, drunk as a lord."
A group of men passed near them; it seemed to him that
he shook hands and laughed a great deal, and that everybody was very witty.
There was Clifford opposite swearing undying confidence in his chum Selby, and
there seemed to be others there, either seated beside them or continually
passing with the swish of skirts on the polished floor. The perfume of roses, the
rustle of fans, the touch of rounded arms and the laughter grew vaguer and
vaguer. The room seemed enveloped in mist. Then, all in a moment each object
stood out painfully distinct, only forms and visages were distorted and voices
piercing. He drew himself up, calm, grave, for the moment master of himself,
but very drunk. He knew he was drunk, and was as guarded and alert, as keenly
suspicious of himself as he would have been of a thief at his elbow. His
self-command enabled Clifford to hold his head safely under some running water,
and repair to the street considerably the worse for wear, but never suspecting
that his companion was drunk. For a time he kept his self-command. His face was
only a bit paler, a bit tighter than usual; he was only a trifle slower and
more fastidious in his speech. It was midnight when he left Clifford peacefully
slumbering in somebody's arm-chair, with a long suede glove dangling in his
hand and a plumy boa twisted about his neck to protect his throat from drafts.
He walked through the hall and down the stairs, and found himself on the
sidewalk in a quarter he did not know. Mechanically he looked up at the name of
the street. The name was not familiar. He turned and steered his course toward
some lights clustered at the end of the street. They proved farther away than
he had anticipated, and after a long quest he came to the conclusion that his
eyes had been mysteriously removed from their proper places and had been reset
on either side of his head like those of a bird. It grieved him to think of the
inconvenience this transformation might occasion him, and he attempted to cock
up his head, hen-like, to test the mobility of his neck. Then an immense
despair stole over him,—tears gathered in the tear-ducts, his heart melted, and
he collided with a tree. This shocked him into comprehension; he stifled the
violent tenderness in his breast, picked up his hat and moved on more briskly.
His mouth was white and drawn, his teeth tightly clinched. He held his course
pretty well and strayed but little, and after an apparently interminable length
of time found himself passing a line of cabs. The brilliant lamps, red, yellow,
and green annoyed him, and he felt it might be pleasant to demolish them with
his cane, but mastering this impulse he passed on. Later an idea struck him
that it would save fatigue to take a cab, and he started back with that
intention, but the cabs seemed already so far away and the lanterns were so
bright and confusing that he gave it up, and pulling himself together looked
around.
A shadow, a mass, huge, undefined, rose to his right.
He recognized the Arc de Triomphe and gravely shook his cane at it. Its size
annoyed him. He felt it was too big. Then he heard something fall clattering to
the pavement and thought probably it was his cane but it didn't much matter.
When he had mastered himself and regained control of his right leg, which
betrayed symptoms of insubordination, he found himself traversing the Place de
la Concorde at a pace which threatened to land him at the Madeleine. This would
never do. He turned sharply to the right and crossing the bridge passed the
Palais Bourbon at a trot and wheeled into the Boulevard St. Germain. He got on
well enough although the size of the War Office struck him as a personal insult,
and he missed his cane, which it would have been pleasant to drag along the
iron railings as he passed. It occurred to him, however, to substitute his hat,
but when he found it he forgot what he wanted it for and replaced it upon his
head with gravity. Then he was obliged to battle with a violent inclination to
sit down and weep. This lasted until he came to the rue de Rennes, but there he
became absorbed in contemplating the dragon on the balcony overhanging the Cour
du Dragon, and time slipped away until he remembered vaguely that he had no
business there, and marched off again. It was slow work. The inclination to sit
down and weep had given place to a desire for solitary and deep reflection.
Here his right leg forgot its obedience and attacking the left, outflanked it
and brought him up against a wooden board which seemed to bar his path. He
tried to walk around it, but found the street closed. He tried to push it over,
and found he couldn't. Then he noticed a red lantern standing on a pile of
paving-stones inside the barrier. This was pleasant. How was he to get home if
the boulevard was blocked? But he was not on the boulevard. His treacherous
right leg had beguiled him into a detour, for there, behind him lay the
boulevard with its endless line of lamps,—and here, what was this narrow
dilapidated street piled up with earth and mortar and heaps of stone? He looked
up. Written in staring black letters on the barrier was
RUE BARRÉE.
He sat down. Two policemen whom he knew came by and
advised him to get up, but he argued the question from a standpoint of personal
taste, and they passed on, laughing. For he was at that moment absorbed in a
problem. It was, how to see Rue Barrée. She was somewhere or other in that big
house with the iron balconies, and the door was locked, but what of that? The
simple idea struck him to shout until she came. This idea was replaced by
another equally lucid,—to hammer on the door until she came; but finally
rejecting both of these as too uncertain, he decided to climb into the balcony,
and opening a window politely inquire for Rue Barrée. There was but one lighted
window in the house that he could see. It was on the second floor, and toward
this he cast his eyes. Then mounting the wooden barrier and clambering over the
piles of stones, he reached the sidewalk and looked up at the façade for a
foothold. It seemed impossible. But a sudden fury seized him, a blind, drunken
obstinacy, and the blood rushed to his head, leaping, beating in his ears like
the dull thunder of an ocean. He set his teeth, and springing at a window-sill,
dragged himself up and hung to the iron bars. Then reason fled; there surged in
his brain the sound of many voices, his heart leaped up beating a mad tattoo,
and gripping at cornice and ledge he worked his way along the façade, clung to
pipes and shutters, and dragged himself up, over and into the balcony by the
lighted window. His hat fell off and rolled against the pane. For a moment he
leaned breathless against the railing—then the window was slowly opened from
within.
They stared at each other for some time. Presently the
girl took two unsteady steps back into the room. He saw her face,—all crimsoned
now,—he saw her sink into a chair by the lamplit table, and without a word he
followed her into the room, closing the big door-like panes behind him. Then
they looked at each other in silence.
The room was small and white; everything was white
about it,—the curtained bed, the little wash-stand in the corner, the bare
walls, the china lamp,—and his own face,—had he known it, but the face and neck
of Rue were surging in the colour that dyed the blossoming rose-tree there on
the hearth beside her. It did not occur to him to speak. She seemed not to
expect it. His mind was struggling with the impressions of the room. The
whiteness, the extreme purity of everything occupied him—began to trouble him.
As his eye became accustomed to the light, other objects grew from the
surroundings and took their places in the circle of lamplight. There was a
piano and a coal-scuttle and a little iron trunk and a bath-tub. Then there was
a row of wooden pegs against the door, with a white chintz curtain covering the
clothes underneath. On the bed lay an umbrella and a big straw hat, and on the
table, a music-roll unfurled, an ink-stand, and sheets of ruled paper. Behind
him stood a wardrobe faced with a mirror, but somehow he did not care to see
his own face just then. He was sobering.
The girl sat looking at him without a word. Her face
was expressionless, yet the lips at times trembled almost imperceptibly. Her
eyes, so wonderfully blue in the daylight, seemed dark and soft as velvet, and
the colour on her neck deepened and whitened with every breath. She seemed
smaller and more slender than when he had seen her in the street, and there was
now something in the curve of her cheek almost infantine. When at last he
turned and caught his own reflection in the mirror behind him, a shock passed
through him as though he had seen a shameful thing, and his clouded mind and
his clouded thoughts grew clearer. For a moment their eyes met then his sought
the floor, his lips tightened, and the struggle within him bowed his head and
strained every nerve to the breaking. And now it was over, for the voice within
had spoken. He listened, dully interested but already knowing the end,—indeed
it little mattered;—the end would always be the same for him;—he understood
now—always the same for him, and he listened, dully interested, to a voice
which grew within him. After a while he stood up, and she rose at once, one
small hand resting on the table. Presently he opened the window, picked up his
hat, and shut it again. Then he went over to the rose-bush and touched the
blossoms with his face. One was standing in a glass of water on the table and
mechanically the girl drew it out, pressed it with her lips and laid it on the
table beside him. He took it without a word and crossing the room, opened the
door. The landing was dark and silent, but the girl lifted the lamp and gliding
past him slipped down the polished stairs to the hallway. Then unchaining the
bolts, she drew open the iron wicket.
Through this he passed with his rose.
THE END
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